Deciphering me as moms

There are certain points about ME that does not really qualify me as a 'normal' moms

• Require sleep in
• Don't operate in 24 hours time, which is very bad for kids!
• Brain spinning, brain take a break (get a very quick food with the most minimal thought,  like bread / leftover / 3-min noodle / egg in microwave, eat), brain spins again, brain take a break very minimum (quick run to toilet), brain spins again
• Body is completely not acknowledged
• Brain spin like crazy then body forces a shut down, brain forces to relax, then body take over and have very good sleep (morning, in train, 6pm after finish work). So my cycle is probably extend between 36 hours to 96 hours time. 
• Brain travels very rapidly, gigantic tentacle and vastly intensive, unable to achieve brilliance without this
• Grow up never really (at least in Australia) 
• Never really eat properly 
• All computers, all brain work, very little hands work 
• Addicted to screen, phone alert literally every waking second
• Computers / screens - multiple tabs, multiple tasks running at same time
• Eating whilst doing computer / watching / not much proper eating in dining table
• Not much preparing food or even giving thoughts into it
• Not much pooping or even giving thoughts into it
• Sleep only if forced by body

The new me, require a big change in reprogramming my life, my body, which is doable... but my brain is the hard one.  I cannot achieve briliance without that gigantic cobweb of thoughts

I can aim less. 

I can document my thoughts step by step & really STOP-ALL and pause, until the next time Remi goes childcare. 

End of blog.