Ode to my Baby (toddler)

I'd like to use this opportunity to write something positive

to balance the not so great  / work in progress part of my life

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I am bursting with love for my baby

I admit, I am not the perfect mother

There are times I am too tired to be organised for the day, and just wing it

There are times where I give food that I think may be a few days old, but still look and taste ok, then I feel guilty and discard it as she was eating it

There are times I am too tired to give solids, I end up breastfeeding her instead

There are times where I choose sleep over  cooking,  as I need my brain to work for pressing business matters

But god damn I try

I try to be the best mother I can
I try to be the best wife I can
I try to balance this family altogether

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For my husband

It is not one way street

I share his burden in business

I read those unpleasant emails,  I am the bucket to let him whinge / pour his emotional reactions,  I intervene and jump in during important moments to call / meet / solve problems when it counts

I adjust my day (readjust baby schedule) so that I can be there for him

I pick him up when he is down (I am not very good at this, I usually reprimand and ask him to toughen up, even though what he needs more is comfort and safe space)


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I love spending time with my baby

I love changing her

I love breakfast time


I love it when I have the energy