I'd like to use this opportunity to write something positive
to balance the not so great / work in progress part of my life
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I am bursting with love for my baby
I admit, I am not the perfect mother
There are times I am too tired to be organised for the day, and just wing it
There are times where I give food that I think may be a few days old, but still look and taste ok, then I feel guilty and discard it as she was eating it
There are times I am too tired to give solids, I end up breastfeeding her instead
There are times where I choose sleep over cooking, as I need my brain to work for pressing business matters
But god damn I try
I try to be the best mother I can
I try to be the best wife I can
I try to balance this family altogether
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For my husband
It is not one way street
I share his burden in business
I read those unpleasant emails, I am the bucket to let him whinge / pour his emotional reactions, I intervene and jump in during important moments to call / meet / solve problems when it counts
I adjust my day (readjust baby schedule) so that I can be there for him
I pick him up when he is down (I am not very good at this, I usually reprimand and ask him to toughen up, even though what he needs more is comfort and safe space)
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I love spending time with my baby
I love changing her
I love breakfast time
I love it when I have the energy
Addressing the dilemmas of parenthood... and my take on it